I feel so low right now.
So yeah, this annoying 17-year old is back. Some will say, "Oh what does he have to say now?"
To tell you the truth, I don't.
I recently gave a mock test paper for JEE.
Yeah, I'm supposed to be 'IIT material' and I can be an 'engineer'.
But that is SO not true.
I don't even get it why I have to do this. It's like there's nothing else to do. Just IIT. That's it. End of the line.
Anyway, the test went nothing like I expected. I got a ZERO. Yep, I did.
I am such a failure.
People say there's a lot of scope taking up sciences. I don't know who these people are, but that is such a lie. Being a Science student I just can't seem to find a single option to take up as a career. And my parents have such high expectations for me thinking that I'm gonna crack IIT. Little do they know that that is never gonna happen.
To be honest, I'm lazy. VERY lazy. I just don't see the point of studying sometimes. Get good marks, grow up, get a job and then settle down. I mean seriously? Is life really like that?
I don't think so.
I have literally no interest to do IIT or to become an engineer. But as Mom says, "Just do engineering and then do whatever you want. At least you will have something to fall back on."
That just isn't seem to be happening for me right now.
I see people around me and it seems like everything is sorted for them. They don't have to do anything. Everyone's busy studying and they are totally prepared for everything. And here I am, having no aim, no goals; just dreams that will never come true.
Some say, follow your passion. But it really doesn't seem my 'passion' is gonna help me. I mean I am passionate about astronomy; I always used to love star-gazing and reading about other worlds. But that too is a difficult career to choose.
I am so confused right now what to do. I will never be the one to crack IIT, nor will I ever do something extremely big. I will just get lost into oblivion, lost in the ever-flowing and unchanging river of nothingness...
So yeah, this annoying 17-year old is back. Some will say, "Oh what does he have to say now?"
To tell you the truth, I don't.
I recently gave a mock test paper for JEE.
Yeah, I'm supposed to be 'IIT material' and I can be an 'engineer'.
But that is SO not true.
I don't even get it why I have to do this. It's like there's nothing else to do. Just IIT. That's it. End of the line.
Anyway, the test went nothing like I expected. I got a ZERO. Yep, I did.
I am such a failure.
People say there's a lot of scope taking up sciences. I don't know who these people are, but that is such a lie. Being a Science student I just can't seem to find a single option to take up as a career. And my parents have such high expectations for me thinking that I'm gonna crack IIT. Little do they know that that is never gonna happen.
To be honest, I'm lazy. VERY lazy. I just don't see the point of studying sometimes. Get good marks, grow up, get a job and then settle down. I mean seriously? Is life really like that?
I don't think so.
I have literally no interest to do IIT or to become an engineer. But as Mom says, "Just do engineering and then do whatever you want. At least you will have something to fall back on."
That just isn't seem to be happening for me right now.
I see people around me and it seems like everything is sorted for them. They don't have to do anything. Everyone's busy studying and they are totally prepared for everything. And here I am, having no aim, no goals; just dreams that will never come true.
Some say, follow your passion. But it really doesn't seem my 'passion' is gonna help me. I mean I am passionate about astronomy; I always used to love star-gazing and reading about other worlds. But that too is a difficult career to choose.
I am so confused right now what to do. I will never be the one to crack IIT, nor will I ever do something extremely big. I will just get lost into oblivion, lost in the ever-flowing and unchanging river of nothingness...
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