I have no idea how this works.
So yeah, I'm a 17-year-old guy who is living his life as it goes. I guess I have had many moments that I would really want to share with people, friends, family and who not, but see, a conversation usually involves two people consciously listening and talking to each other. I realized people don't listen. They never will. Everyone has their own lives to handle and they don't give crap about the other person. I guess that's why people go for 'therapy sessions' and what not so that at least someone can hear them out.
I guess I never had that luxury for someone to listen to me. Don't get me wrong, I have an amazing family and have some wonderful bunch of friends. But I never had that 'special friend' who is your 'bae' or 'chuddy-buddy'; someone who knows what his friend is going through, what he wants/likes, what he is up to and stuff. And the few times I believed I did, I was so wrong. No one ever takes you seriously, is what I learnt from this world.
I have so much to share, so much to talk about, but in this so-called 'busy world' no one has time to stop by and listen to what the other person is saying. Heck, they don't even want others to listen to what they are saying! Some weird world this is. I swear even aliens are more friendly then we are. I mean seriously.
In these 17 years of my life I have experienced so much. I have literally grown up as a person. I made friends, I lost friends, I laughed, I cried, I got angry, I got sad... I guess this happens to every other person in this world, right? Or does it?
A best friend of mine left me for good. I don't know what the hell does that even feel like. Should I feel angry that he betrayed me? Sad that he left me? Or both? I have no idea what I feel now. It's like a big hole has come in my heart from nowhere. It's like a big piece of me is missing, as if I have been left alone to face the world. I wonder whether I cried for real or those were just crocodile tears...
I tried so hard to talk to people, but it's like they are just not ready to listen to you. They don't want to see you or hear your nonsensical bullshit that you seemingly 'made up'. A few do listen, but they just act as if they care but you can literally see they don't. Everyone cares, but no one cares enough. Everyone cares when it's too late.
I just wish there was someone to listen, someone who could hear me out. Someone, who actually CARED.
So yeah, I'm a 17-year-old guy who is living his life as it goes. I guess I have had many moments that I would really want to share with people, friends, family and who not, but see, a conversation usually involves two people consciously listening and talking to each other. I realized people don't listen. They never will. Everyone has their own lives to handle and they don't give crap about the other person. I guess that's why people go for 'therapy sessions' and what not so that at least someone can hear them out.
I guess I never had that luxury for someone to listen to me. Don't get me wrong, I have an amazing family and have some wonderful bunch of friends. But I never had that 'special friend' who is your 'bae' or 'chuddy-buddy'; someone who knows what his friend is going through, what he wants/likes, what he is up to and stuff. And the few times I believed I did, I was so wrong. No one ever takes you seriously, is what I learnt from this world.
I have so much to share, so much to talk about, but in this so-called 'busy world' no one has time to stop by and listen to what the other person is saying. Heck, they don't even want others to listen to what they are saying! Some weird world this is. I swear even aliens are more friendly then we are. I mean seriously.
In these 17 years of my life I have experienced so much. I have literally grown up as a person. I made friends, I lost friends, I laughed, I cried, I got angry, I got sad... I guess this happens to every other person in this world, right? Or does it?
A best friend of mine left me for good. I don't know what the hell does that even feel like. Should I feel angry that he betrayed me? Sad that he left me? Or both? I have no idea what I feel now. It's like a big hole has come in my heart from nowhere. It's like a big piece of me is missing, as if I have been left alone to face the world. I wonder whether I cried for real or those were just crocodile tears...
I tried so hard to talk to people, but it's like they are just not ready to listen to you. They don't want to see you or hear your nonsensical bullshit that you seemingly 'made up'. A few do listen, but they just act as if they care but you can literally see they don't. Everyone cares, but no one cares enough. Everyone cares when it's too late.
I just wish there was someone to listen, someone who could hear me out. Someone, who actually CARED.
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